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I Talk a Big Game
03:17
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Here we are
Two bodies trying to make it the same as we had in mind
Through the fog of my own
I hear you moan far away
Feel the pace picking up and it's more than I can take
Cause I talk a big game and then I don't
I talk a big game and then I don't
I talk a big game and then I don't
I talk a big game and then I don't
Hear me out
Help keep the calm in my caress
If my fears won't stay out of mind
I'm eager to learn
Keep talking me through
Taking turns
Till I'm nearly out of breathe
Keeping me hot for teacher
Cause I talk a big game and then I don't
I talk a big game and then I don't
I talk a big game and then I don't
I talk a big game and then I don't
Who'd I think I was fooling
I barely know what I'm doing
I can feel my youth after every mistake
I can feel the bonds on me ready to break
I dropped my guard at the entry
Don't use my weakness against me
Who can blame a young man for paying his dues
Treat this like a gift not a favor from you
Hear me now
If I'm telling this story like the rest
If you hear something out of line
If I'm bending the truth
I do cause I'm young
It's out of youth
Maybe all my stories stop knowing you have my secrets
Cause I talk a big game and then I don't
I talk a big game and then I don't
I talk a big game and then I don't
I talk a big game
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My Apologist
03:43
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Won't see my crying or nothing
I can't live my life in a cast
Won't shack up and wait by the phone
Cause believe me baby I can walk alone
I could burn my bridges down
I could leave the Catalinas
And live my life in a car
Just a creep in his car moving slow
As he drives my your home
You wouldn't believe how wasy I get blown away
But if you're my friend
You'll be my aplogist
You'll say he just wanted more than I offered
But if you're my friend
You'll be my apologist
And it won't be that much different from where I am now
No it won't be that much different from where I am now
When I sing this song you can sing it back
You can sing it loud
You can sing it flat or alone
Or alone
But if you look I will be gone
I can't live my life at home
You wouldn't believe how easy I get thrown away
But if you're my friend
You'll be my aplogist
You'll say he just wanted more than I offered
But if you're my friend
You'll be my apologist
And it won't be that much different from where I am now
No it won't be that much different from where I am now
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I just don't care what it's called
But the feeling is gone
Not what you came for to hear
Just stating the obvious
I'm feeling like I failed to form the bond that you did
No point in dragging it out
I know where this goes
From something we both forget
To a song that I wrote
Just singing bout the things I thought to do but never did
I see the cards and I call em
It's the only thing honest
I've done in a long, long time
The guilt was breaking me up
So why the hell put if off for as long as I did
Back to the life that I knew
And the routine I left
Keeping my schedule under rule of the bars and its hours
Where went all the reasons for jumping off this carousel when I did
I feel the same as I was
No point in changing because
I just fall into this role
I'll be much better in the long haul for leaving it all
Before the mellow gets hold
Before my kettle gets cold
I tried to see my role for what it really
I tried to want you back but I feel like I'm done
It's all the same to me if I figure it out
Or of I stay in this hole
I'll go to play the role of the star I'll become
And fumble through the motions I make cause I'm dumb
I barely believe I'm fit to make it so I'm
Just gonna fake it and fold
Maybe I'm better alone
I think I'm better alone
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I'm the Server Here
05:06
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I'm late to discover there's a booth in the corner looking dumb
They look at me nervous like they're waiting for service to come
It's my fault I admit for the wait when I get where they are
And I take menus over but they've already ordered from the bar
Such a stupid thing to recall
Such a stupid thing to recall
But who am I to complain
I'm the server here
I'm the one getting paid for their time and for taking the blame
Blow it off or be late
But let's get something clear
I'm the one getting hurt if I'm skirting the work just to play
When my customers call me
The smile that is on me is a wig
Because no one here works
We're just milking the perks of the gig
Yeah, the boys always chasing the girls who go shaking their hips
For the regular lonelies who get flirted with only for tips
Such a stupid thing to recall
Such a stupid thing to recall
But who am I to complain
I'm the server here
While the others are leaning
I'm dreaming of making it big
Do enough to get paid
Hammer that check when it clears
If it hasn't been voided to pay the advances you take
One more years one more reason to fail
One more weight at the end of my scale
One more poison to pour in my glass
I can see how it all comes to pass after I disappear
They replace the old and pour in the mold
Whoever they've hired to fill in the hole
Nothing changes when I go away
They stay the same
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I Live a Charmed Life
04:12
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Squandered all my love on a lady
Used up all my luck as a baby
I was saved from the cold of the casket
And placed in a basket of reeds
They carried me out of my port in the reeds to the court of the King
Bred to live a life that was special
Bound to be with all the potential
Now I'm in the back cutting rails
The unmistakable nails of its grip
I'm buggin out of my nose
To the end of my toes from the drip
Where went the road that I had underneath when I started
Wandered away from the path on the course that I charted
I made up my mind when I left
Knew the risk I could leave broken-hearted
Still blew a kiss and departed
Blame it on the way that they raise me
Soft from all the praise that they gave me
I grew up to have every advantage
And still barely manage to live
Unless the effort I need can be bought
I just know I ain't got it to give
Where went the role I was meant to have starred in
Wasted away for a taste and then kicked out the garden
I'm standing in line with the rest that the test of opportunity pardoned
She blew a kiss but then hardened
I'm eating the dust of the other contenders
I'm equally damned through defeat or surrender
I should've been raised to compete but I'm tender
And I can go down with the boat just long as I know I'm remembered
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I Don't Know What For
04:36
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Before I lose my nerve I think it's time to go
Packing my bags then we'll hit the road
To Berkeley, California for the sort of life I've longed for
My habits and my friends are bring me down
I'm ripping up the roots I buried in this town
I'm jumping off the hook that pulled my peers in for the long haul
But misery loves company it keeps them at the table
They're buried in their drinks that keep them married to the fable
But I don't know what for
I'm taking my job from the guy who quit
He finally told the boss he's tired of this shit
The life that he's leaving is my inheritance
I wander through the streets until they feel like home
Going through the motions until they're in my bones
Putting in the work it takes to forget where you can from
But something looks familiar in the faces of the locals
I wonder what they wish for when they're staring out the windows
But I don't know what for
But I don't know what for
Let the music sing it
I'm jumping off the clock and meeting up with friends
Drinking up a tab until the service ends
Try to get the room to stop its spinning but I want more
Mourning what I want but I could never get
The laundry list of deadlines that I never met
All the noble work I left abandaoned after false starts
Try to come to terms with what I already knew before
Maybe this poor man's San Francisco ain't the paradise I hoped for
Maybe this poor man's San Francisco ain't the paradise I hoped for
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If the words will not come out
If I'm struggling without you with this song
Help me see what's wrong
If I'm running out of time
If you pull ahead while I'm picking up the rear
If I throw the race out of fear
Help me from there to here
If I'm falling out of touch
If the effort seems to much for me to make
Show me what's at stake
Break the news you've had enough
Say the road with me is too rough and hard to steer
Point me away if I'm near
Blame me for pouring your tears
I'm the reason you're
Leaving me tired and worse for wear than you were
Believe me when I say
It's making me shudder to think the role that I played
If the words will not come out
If I'm struggling without you with this song
Help me see what's wrong
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M. the Heir Apparent Berkeley, California
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